Saturday, August 8, 2009

An act of faith~

I put my notice in at work yesterday. I've decided to become a stay-at-home mom when Cooper arrives and comes home. There is nothing wrong with women who work outside of the home and more power to all of those wonderful and loving mommies. I went into panic mode when I learned about my upcoming hysterectomy and knowing that Cooper will be my only (living) biological child has put me into a very protective mode. I want to spend every moment that I can with him, especially since I didn't get to spend any with his sister. Other factors went into this decision: he will be a preemie, and our personal beliefs on vaccinations given to babies too quickly (no hate mail, please, I just believe in spacing the vacinations, just my opinion!) and, the fact that I don't have any family that live in the immediate area that could possibly keep Cooper for us while I work everyday.

My last day of work will be on September 8th...I go into the hospital on September 11th...I pray that I will be in the hospital for 10 weeks so that Cooper won't have to be in the NICU for longer than necessary.

Life will change for us when we become a single income family, but honestly, all that will change is that we will actually have to live on a budget. We are blessed that my hubby has a very stable job and he is very succesful and therefore we are able to make this personal sacrifice for our son. I've been at my job for 7 years, so I'm taking this huge act of faith and planning our lives as if our son will be an everyday part of our lives.

6 comments:

  1. Do as your heart guide you, I am totally behind you, Mate. Lots of love

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  2. I pray everything goes well with your family and little Cooper. I ran across your blog weeks ago and I've been following your story and wish you nothing but much deserved happiness on your journey. As a mother I can tell you I was blessed enough to be able to stay at home full time with my first 2 kiddos and loved EVERY minute of it. It is the hardest yet most rewarding job in the world. If you have your Faith, God will provide the rest :)

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  3. I know I'll be very protective with our next child, it would be hard not to be after a loss. Praying everything works out well. My mom made the sacrifice to stay at home with us and I'm so grateful for that choice!

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  4. Somehow this "new" blog of yours never made it onto my reader - my apologies, sweet girl. I just realized it when I was wondering how *your* pregnancy was going, then it hit me that you have a whole seperate blog all about it! Thank you for your kind words and support lately. I hope that I soon will be able to handle this with the strength and grace that you show in your words here.

    Thinking of you and sweet Cooper.

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  5. You and I have something in common. I just quit my job yesterday too. I don't have a baby on the way, but it's an act of faith too. Faith that it was a good decision and something better is on the way for me (whether that be a baby or a different job opportunity). It will be so nice for you to have that time with Cooper.

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  6. I had planned on going back to work with Liam but since losing him I don't think I'll be able to go back when I finally get my rainbow. I agree with you when you said you didn't get to spend anytime with Lily and want to spend every minute with Cooper, I feel the same with Liam

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