Thursday, August 12, 2010

MRI tomorrow

I just rocked Cooper to sleep for his afternoon nap and I held him for a few extra minutes before placing him in his crib. I paid attention to the weight of him in my arms and listened to his rhythmic breathing. I kissed his cheek and whispered "I love you"...This was such a peaceful scene and a quiet moment shared between the two of us...I'm not looking forward to tomorrow.

Cooper has his MRI tomorrow. They're going to give him meds to sleep so (praying!) that the whole experience won't be too dramatic. I'm terrified of him being scared and not being there to help him through it. The thought of him needing me and not being there gives me a surge of anxiety/panic that makes me want to puke. They want to check for brain structure abnormalities due to the hypotonia and other developemental delays. In my heart, I feel like the MRI is going to show a perfect brain BUT there's always that little voice that says "come on, you've had some of the most rare events happen to you, do you really think that your son will be one of the lucky ones?" Hello, uterine rupture, placenta increta, hysterectomy at 31...I mean my luck sucks...

But, it's more than my luck just sucking...this is my child's future...

But, than I look at his luck and I think "Well, God's been on his side all this time..." What can you say about a baby that lived because his placenta grew into scar tissue that kept my uterus together long enough to get him to 31 weeks? What do you say about a baby that received steriods 2 days (steriods are most effective within 48 hours) before his mother went into spontaneous preterm labor? What do you say about a baby that never had to be on a vent despite being born at 31 weeks? What do you say about a baby that goes to physical therapy every week and despite the trials always has a smile to give?

He is a miracle in every sense of the word! He's my heart. He's my pride and joy regardless of what he can/cannot do...He's Super Cooper all the way :)


  1. He is OUR miracle too..we love him and we are praying for you and him tomorrow...

    He has shown all of us how he is doing everyting he can. His eyes are piercing and his smile is radiant. We all hope that HE is the lucky one...I know YOU have been lucky, because you had him...A true miracle on Earth...just remember he has the best guardian Angel you can have...and her name is Lily...and Alyssa, and ALL of our babies are going to get him through this ((hugs))....

  2. The MRI will be a breeze. The hardest part will be getting the IV/medicine in. After that he will just be sleeping and even though the big machine looks scary, it won't bother him. Lily had one while in the hospital when she was 4.5 months old and she slept through the whole thing without complication!
    I'll be praying for you and Cooper. You have TONS of people that are loving, supporting and praying for y'all. If you need someone to talk to that has been through the MRI scene, I'm here for you!!

  3. WOW our stories so so alike!! I know the feeling of having to hand your little one of to a nurse that you don't know..We just went through this 2 weeks ago for the 2nd time for a MRI..My Bristol also has hypotonia and some delays..we also go to therapy with a Smile..
    I am praying for you and your little one..

  4. Yay for rolling!

    I'll be thinking about you both tomorrow. Cooper (and you) is such a trooper!!

  5. I will be thinking of you and Cutie Cooper tomorrow too!

  6. Had you guys on my mind last night and definitely keep you in my prayers today through his procedure!

  7. Today has been a busy day. I pray that all went well and that the MRI can give you and the doctors the important information to aid in Coopers continued progress and development. Early Intervention is always key to a successful outcome.