Monday, September 21, 2009

Hospital Update

Things have thankfully been very quiet and boring here!

We continue to do NSTs twice a day and the doppler once in the afternoon. All the nurses are so surprised on how good Cooper does with the NST at 25 weeks. He is very active and we all laugh at the black lines on the strips showing how much he moves~ sometimes its just one straight black line! They have started doing the cross/match at the hospital blood bank so they will do blood draws every 3 days in preparation for an emergency delivery. I now have to wear ted hoses during the day due to some mild swelling in my legs and they certainly aren't the most comfortable things to wear all day. I'm cool though with whatever needs to be done though...

We talk a lot with our docs about delivery day. We've gone over the worst case scenario and sadly the hysterectomy is not the worst case scenario! The worst case scenario with the placenta accreta is if it become placenta percredia which means it grows through the uterine wall and attaches itself to a nearby organ. In my case that would be my large intestine which would mean a bowel resection and yep, a colostomy bag...We're going to have an in-depth u/s on a special u/s machine on Friday to look more closely at my uterus and hopefully things will still be stable. I'm trying to absorb so much information and sometimes it becomes too much. The c-section and hysterectomy are big enough but a colostomy is going to be something that will mentally challenge me. Hopefully, it won't come to that and Cooper's poop will be my only concern...Sorry, if this was TMI for some of you!

I'm going to go to the support group for the high-risk hall this week. I went to a c-section class last week and had the chance to meet some other ladies last week. One girl especially just spoke to my heart. She's 22 weeks pregnant with twins but lost one of the babies last week so they're trying to keep the other baby in there for as long as possible. I immediately wanted to go over and hug her because you could see the tears in her eyes as she told us about the baby girl that she lost last week. You instantly bond with another dbm and I looked her in the eyes as I told her about Lily and we looked at each other with a look of understanding. I know that look of sadness and how the tears are never far away.

I'm on the internet a lot from reading all of your blogs to facebook to babycenter...I'm all over the place. I've been reading and journaling. I've semi been working on this book idea about my journey towards motherhood thats mostly for me and one day maybe Cooper will be able to understand how much we wanted him and how much we've always wanted to be his parents. I became a mommy when Lily came into my life but this journey didn't end with her and continues on as we do all we can to welcome him safely to this world.

And, then a whole new journey begins...


  1. Your idea to write a book is wonderful. What a great way to use your time. I'm praying that the worst case scenario for you is just a C section and a hysterectomy. It sounds like you are in good hands. You have me convinced that hospital bed rest is the only way to go. I may be begging to move into the hospital at 18 weeks.

  2. I totally agree, the book sounds great! My heart missed a beat when I read your post but then I realized that this is not in our hands: Thankfully! We just lay all this before our Father's feet and I know He listens. Praying all the time for you and Cooper not to mention that you are surrounded by the strongest Angels 24/7!
    love and hugs Sister! :)

  3. I had to stop by again to tell you that I had a dream about you last night. I was visiting you in the hospital and Beth (Ada's mom) was there too. We were just sitting around talking about our girls and having a good time. I have also been thinking of you as I watch the flood coverage on the news. Hope you're well!

  4. First I have to say that I love Bree's dream!

    For some reason, this post made me cry. I think it was your part about how those of us who have lost babies all understand each other. It's so true, and it's a club I wish none of us were a part of. Then I thought about how today is my birthday and I don't have both of my girls here to share it with me. :(

    I'm sorry to hear about your friend Stephanie (and I read the latest post, too). I'm glad you guys have each other for support. I'll be praying for the best possible outcome for you.