Hospital Update

Things have thankfully been very quiet and boring here!

We continue to do NSTs twice a day and the doppler once in the afternoon. All the nurses are so surprised on how good Cooper does with the NST at 25 weeks. He is very active and we all laugh at the black lines on the strips showing how much he moves~ sometimes its just one straight black line! They have started doing the cross/match at the hospital blood bank so they will do blood draws every 3 days in preparation for an emergency delivery. I now have to wear ted hoses during the day due to some mild swelling in my legs and they certainly aren't the most comfortable things to wear all day. I'm cool though with whatever needs to be done though...

We talk a lot with our docs about delivery day. We've gone over the worst case scenario and sadly the hysterectomy is not the worst case scenario! The worst case scenario with the placenta accreta is if it become placenta percredia which means it grows through the uterine wall and attaches itself to a nearby organ. In my case that would be my large intestine which would mean a bowel resection and yep, a colostomy bag...We're going to have an in-depth u/s on a special u/s machine on Friday to look more closely at my uterus and hopefully things will still be stable. I'm trying to absorb so much information and sometimes it becomes too much. The c-section and hysterectomy are big enough but a colostomy is going to be something that will mentally challenge me. Hopefully, it won't come to that and Cooper's poop will be my only concern...Sorry, if this was TMI for some of you!

I'm going to go to the support group for the high-risk hall this week. I went to a c-section class last week and had the chance to meet some other ladies last week. One girl especially just spoke to my heart. She's 22 weeks pregnant with twins but lost one of the babies last week so they're trying to keep the other baby in there for as long as possible. I immediately wanted to go over and hug her because you could see the tears in her eyes as she told us about the baby girl that she lost last week. You instantly bond with another dbm and I looked her in the eyes as I told her about Lily and we looked at each other with a look of understanding. I know that look of sadness and how the tears are never far away.

I'm on the internet a lot from reading all of your blogs to facebook to babycenter...I'm all over the place. I've been reading and journaling. I've semi been working on this book idea about my journey towards motherhood thats mostly for me and one day maybe Cooper will be able to understand how much we wanted him and how much we've always wanted to be his parents. I became a mommy when Lily came into my life but this journey didn't end with her and continues on as we do all we can to welcome him safely to this world.

And, then a whole new journey begins...